On Sunday evening, SP and I were napping in bed and I could smell Rob's aftershave on him.... OMG it was naughty and sexy and delicious to smell the scent of another man on my husband. It of course reminded me of Rob and all the lovely things he did to me (which SP never does!) so I was all over SP and we had sex a couple of times. 
I thought about Rob pretty much all day, he emailed too saying that he knew SP had gone commando on the way home Saturday, as Monday morning he found his underwear near the couch 
I thought about how he touched and stroked me, not even in a sexual way, but how he stroked my arm, or neck or ran his fingers through my hair, held my hand and stroked my palm when we were 'resting'. I was on my back alot of the time during our 'rest' periods, and he'd always put his hand on my stomach, as if to check I was breathing.
I asked him at one point during the session, what HE wanted, he just replied 'I'm enjoying the look on your face, right now' - as if nothing was more important than me. WOW. I've not had that kind of attention for many many years. 
And it wasn't like it was convoluted... he wasn't trying to woo me, we'd already been intimate, and I'm married, and he wants 'no strings' - so I thought how lucky we were to have found such a sensitive and intelligent partner.
SP was quite aggressive that night, verbally and physically, as if he had to show he was in charge or something, but he had no problem with Rob paying me more attention than to him. I think... but I was a little bombed on this and that 
I found myself wanting to speak to him, smell him, touch him again, and even though we didn't have alot of physical chemistry (ie. he didn't make me cum, well neither of them did actually, but that's just me), I found that I was realizing how much I missed 'romantic' attention. 
SP has acted VERY differently since that night. He has been WAY more affectionate, telling me several times a day he loves me, lots of cuddles and even arm and face-stroking, which I ALWAYS bugged him to do, as I like it, and now, hey presto, he's doing it daily ! 
Of course, I know the reason, it's obvious that he paid great attention to what Rob did with me and how well I responded. Finally he gets it?? Or he's jealous that another guy made me feel good? Either way, I get the kind of touching I like, finally after 2 1/2 years ! 
SP did make it clear, though, that he didn't want to see Rob on a social basis as he thought the lines between social and sexual would get blurred and he didn't want anyone to have expectations of sex when we were just out socially. That's a real shame as Rob had offered to teach us how to rollerblade, and we all share SUCH a similar mindset, that it's almost spooky.
Rob emailed again and said that he'd love to see us again, and not jsut for naughty stuff, that he loved the rapport we all had and would like to see us socially too.
I think SP is a little shocked how much I enjoyed myself, sees that Rob and I have alot in common like our country, the fact we know Europe and speak several European languages - maybe he is worried that I will get emotionally attached - and he may not be wrong !
I did tell SP that I felt guilty that I enjoyed myself and was honest with him that I was thinking about Saturday night when I was with him, and he said "but that's ok, you're still with me now, it's ok to enjoy yourself"
I think though if SP doesn't 'allow' us/me to see him socially, or often (like once a month?) that I will be tempted to see or contact him by myself. I'm afraid of that as there is absolutely NOTHING to gain except the brief excitement that I'm doing something I should not. After my surgery I will speak to my psychologist about that. I think it's all normal thoughts, but I need some help to deal with those feelings I guess. 
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